I Am

I am conflicted
Too many emotions running rampant
I am conflicted
So many questions, too few answers
Nine thousand thoughts tear at my core
Lost in cloudy visage
I am conflicted
Desperate want for clarity of soul
I am conflicted.

I am frantic
Anxiety for future resolution
I am frantic
Episodic, manic confusion rules
Semblance of order vacated for chaos
I am frantic
Past reality, only illusion
I am frantic.

I am crushed
Trusting soul, trusts no more
I am crushed
Space and time move so slow
Shadowed past delays a dimming future
I am crushed
Wake me in the future life
I am crushed.

I am conflicted.
I am frantic.

I am.