Torture

Just fooling myself
Wanting to believe it was a real thing.

You're lies that led to lies
Caught me in your spell now it's hurting.

I want to push you out
Shove you to the ground
And hate you.

Push the pain inside
Let it turn to rage
And hurt you.

Was never good enough
Your actions made that certain.

I see you in my eyes
You still seem so damn perfect.

I want to pull you in
Hold you in my arms
And love you.

Wipe the tears away
Look into your face
And feel you.

It's tearing at my soul to have you so close

And I wish that you could see the torture
So you can feel it too, and hate that part of you

Cause it's not something, I've got the strength to do.

I want to push you out

I want to pull you in

And hate you.